Rewrite

Lyrics by Aaron Coyner

 

Headed home though I’m unsure why

Desperate for guidance I look to the sky

I should’ve moved on but I can’t stay on track

The mistakes that I made keep drawing me back

It’s not what I did but what I didn’t do

I kept it all inside without a word to you

And so I’m left to wonder…

 

Would it be different with the courage to act?

So many things I’d love to retract

 

If I rewrite this chapter

Thought by thought and line by line

Recasting the character that should have been mine

Would things work out?

I’ll never know

But this is therapy in the art of letting go.

 

November 22, 2006

As light breaks through, the day begins

I put on a plastic smile trying to pretend

A shallow flimsy cover for a hole that doesn’t mend

A card came in the mail today from an address I once knew

Handwriting too familiar, it had to be from you.

 A year since we spoke, what could you have to say?

“You’re cordially invited to celebrate our special day.”

I read through the details confirming it’s true

Though I’m dying for me, I’m elated for you.

I sat alone on the couch and scratched down a reply.

Well aware this was my last chance to ever say goodbye.

And all the while thinking…

 

I’ve rewritten the story but the end is still the same.

For protection of the innocent, I changed every name

I’m glad to know you’re happy, but there’s nothing more to say

For my own sanity, I need to stay away.

 

So, I’ll finish the story with the closure that I need

Close and hide the open book for no one else to read

With this path closed, I must move on,

Though I’m unsure where to go

But I’ve finished all my training in the art of letting go.